Raw

If my heart is overwhelmed and I cannot hear Your voice

I'll hold on to what is true though I cannot see

If the storms of life they come and the road ahead gets steep

I will lift these hands in faith, I will believe

I remind myself of all that You've done

And the life I have because of Your Son

Love came down and rescued me

Love came down and set me free

Now I am yours, I am forever yours

-Lyrics from Love Came Down

You know this last year God has taken me on this journey of learning that He doesn't leave lack. I've always been a very independent and self-sufficient person. I realize I allowed myself to become this way due to different life circumstances  and I became this way to help protect my heart from being disappointed. I don't think being independent or self-sufficient is always a bad thing, but these have become barriers between me trusting God. This is bad. 

This last month has been really difficult because of this fear of being disappointed by God. In reality I know this is not true. For God never leaves lack and once He has started a good work, He sees it through to completion. I started this blog with a song and there is a line that says, "I remind myself of all that You've done." When you start to doubt what God has called you to, remind yourself of all the promises He has given you. Remind yourself of all the times He has come through. Remind yourself of His goodness. Remind yourself of the gift He gave, which was His son. Let these thing be the determining factor of how you see your current situation. 

I honestly wanted to write this blog to remind myself that He is always, and always will be, good! He has provide my every need. Why would He not now? Why would He not provide for you? In Him, there is always enough!

So, what do you need? I believe He will provide what you just asked Him for and you will never be disappointed. Thank you for being Jehovah-Rohi (The Lord is my Shepherd).

Alive

What a year it has been! A year ago I was in Mozambique doing Harvest School with Iris Ministries. Now I am in Redding, CA going to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry (BSSM)! God has been teaching me new things, reminding me of old revelations and completely transforming my love and life. These past couple of months haven't always been easy, but Papa God is growing my faith and teaching me to be 100% dependent on Him in every way.

While I was in Africa, God really began to redefine my heart and He started to grow my dreams for the Nations. I never thought it would lead me back home (USA) for a time. I've come to BSSM because they are living out the word of God and they are seeing lives transformed. Sons and Daughters coming home and experiencing the Fathers tangible embrace. It's amazing and I feel so honored to be here.

About three weeks ago I went to a park down the road, where the homeless hangout, with some sack lunches. Side note, people don't want to be your projects. Don't make the homeless, your neighbor or even the people in Africa your project. They are people and they simple want to be known and loved. Anyways, I made friends with a 27 year old lady who has been on the streets for 11 years. That's a long time to be on the streets and she has experienced a lot of life. I hadn't seen her in awhile and was getting a little worried. I'll get back to my friend in a minute. For school I'm a part of a group that has taken over a region of Redding to minister to. This part of town is the perfect place for me. Prostitutes, drug deals, gang banger's...you name it, they've got it (no joke). Today, I was alive! We are loving on people living in this old hotel as their homes. One mom had 6 kids with her. These rooms have two beds one bathroom and no kitchen. So a mom with 6 kids in this place....you do the math. I was talking with one of the mama's when all of a sudden I see my friend from the park walk up to the place! She invited me into her room where I met her friends and we chatted for awhile. God has bigger plans than I can imagine and I believe we will see this whole place transformed and my friend.

Pray for my friend. Pray for Capri (This is my region of Redding). Pray that addictions would be broken. Pray that the hungry would be fed. Pray that the girls in that place would be protected. Pray that the love of God would ravish this whole city